Whew!! Since school began a few weeks ago, I’ve found my self saying this to the point of annoyance – “I’m exhausted.” So I’ve made a conscious effort to not whine about being tired all the time but the fact does remain that these few weeks have left me with no gas in the tank at the end of the day. I come home, kiss the wife and plop down with Lenny and nap.
Part of the reason I’m so exhausted, I’m sure, is because I’m 53 years old. Age does tend to wear one down. Another reason might be that I have a pretty big class this year (30 kids) and I’m teaching a new grade level (4th). I forgot how needy the 4th graders are. That being said, they are a little more innocent and eager to please. Also I have the good fortune of being with a great team (Cheryl, Nichole and Ellen) who take pity and watch out for me. The school day has been lengthen a tad but that might be more mental than everything else.
To be quite honest another reason might be that I try to sneak in a 16-20 mile ride in the morning before school at least three times a week. I was hoping working out would GIVE me some pep but I’m not 100% sure it’s working out that way.
This is the first weekend since school started that I felt like doing anything. The last two weekends have seen me revert to the old-Will and stick around home and putter. The most I would do was go for a long bike ride in the morning. Yesterday I shook my fists at the darkening skies and rode 21 miles on my favorite route through Goochland into horse farm country. Today Lynn and I rode 23 miles on bike in the early morning, had a leisurely lunch and then took Lenny geocaching in Mid-Lothian Mines. I feel much better after getting out even if it was only for a little trip.
Thanks goodness Lynn is retired!! She’s been doing more stuff around the house which allows me time to relax. Today I was going to cut the grass but she said she was going to do it tomorrow. I almost cried.
It’s weird – Lynn being retired. She’s always been this pretty, little teacher person who goes out the door with her bags and lunch ready to fight knuckleheadness wherever and whenever it appears. She seems to like being retired though. She’s more relaxed than ever and the only down side is that Lenny is permanently attached to her at all times. She’s going out with friends, solving puzzles, taking more yoga classes and making more dinners (okay she make almost all the dinners now). She deserves to relax. She’s been an awesome teacher, mother and wife.
I’m sure the tiredness will abate with time. I’ll get use to the differing workload. I’m lucky to work at a school with people who are super-supportive, caring and compassionate. I don’t know if our district knows how fortunate they are to have the staff they have at Beulah.
I’m really hoping the biking and gym 5-6 days a week along with losing some weight will add energy to my day. I’m also going to stress less about stuff and set limits that allow for relaxation and time with friends and family.
The last two days at school I encouraged quality over quantity with the kids. That’s what I’m going to do with my new life with my newly retired wife. I’m going to enjoy doing only the things I love very well. So there will be more quality time with my students, more walks with Lenny, more long bike rides with friends, more telling my brother and kids that I love them, more holding hands with Lynn and less of everything else.
Here’s one of my favorite quotes. Forgive me if I’ve used it before:
- How far you go in life depends on your being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant of the weak and the strong — because someday you will have been all of these.
- George Washington Carver