I’m not sure when it happened, how it happened or why it happened. I’m just glad it happened. Maybe it’s being 52 years old. Maybe it’s losing a bunch of weight and getting fitter. Maybe it’s having a “somewhat” empty nest. Maybe it’s going through breast cancer with Lynn. It could be all or none of those things. I’m not sure I’ll ever figure it out or if that’s even important. I just know I’m happier now than I’ve ever been.
I realized this yesterday when I was trying to chase down my friend on a road bike. Six months ago if you had told me that I would be on a skinny-wheeled road bike on a group ride from Glen Allen to Ashland and that I would be chasing down my good friend Steven who was in turn trying to keep up with a 70 year old guy (that’s right I said 70), I would have told you that you were stark raving mad. You see when you’re well over 300 pounds you don’t have this type of thing on your To-Do List. Yet here I was 6 months later, 75 pounds lighter, riding 24 miles an hour and tears were streaming down my face. Tearing up because I was happy. Happy to be fit, happy to have a healthy wife who loves me, happy to have a few close friends, happy to have such kind, gentle kids, happy to have an amazing brother, fantastic work colleagues/friends and just happy to have made it to 52.
Age will do that to you, I think. It gives you that unique filter that nothing else can.
Going through breast cancer with an amazingly strong and beautiful wife will do that to you, too. Sitting in the oncologist office room the day before brought all that home. Seven years ago we didn’t know if we would be alive. Yet here we both are. All summer long, hiking in horribly hot weather, biking with amazing groups of people, geocaching and just plain having a ball.
So that’s why I guess I was busting a gut, burning my legs up and crying at the same time yesterday on the bike. It just all came out. I’ll never win any bike races, hike up the Matterhorn or have 10,000 geocache finds. What I will have is an awesome wife, great health and amazing friends. I think that’s enough. Actually, I think that it’s more than enough.